A lonely woman in her thirties gets to know the older artist Helena when she interviews her for a magazine. Before long she becomes her assistant, friend, and witness; she instinctively feels she wants to be her everything. Helena invites the narrator to join her and her daughter Olga on the Greek island Ermoupoli, where they spend the summer. Olga, a difficult teenager, is at first the narrator’s competitor for Helena’s attention. The narrator is jealous of their clearly defined dynamics, their unquestionable relationship. But over the course of a few hot weeks, the dynamics change as the narrator begins to find Helena boring and irrelevant; she’s about to leave the island when she understands that something forbidden is brewing between her and Olga. She decides to stay. The narrator and Olga initiate a secret sexual relationship, and the narrator feels intoxicated with power and possibility, even as a tawdry sense that what they’re doing is wrong undergirds the situation and their uneven power dynamics. Fall approaches, and Helena decides it is time for them to leave. Whatever existed between the narrator and Olga, between the narrator and Helena, is gone, impossible, as the narrator is once again on the outside of the family, and the long hot weeks of summer become a memory, its contours irreversibly shaped and transformed into narrative while the lived experience slips away.

Hanna Johansson’s debut novel trains a sumptuous gaze on desire between women and the full spectrum of attraction that exists beyond the strictures of heteronormativity, and thus beyond easily legible categories. This queer Lolita story is as sensual as it is disturbing, as gorgeous as it is complicated, probing the depths of memory, power, and the narratives that arrange our experience of the world.

WINNER OF THE KATAPULT PRIZE 2021

SHORTLISTED FOR BORÅS TIDNING'S DEBUTANT PRIZE 2021